a faithful companion

To trunk or not to trunk, that is the question.

Today I revisited a story I had decided to trunk a couple of months ago. Its last rejection, one of many, had discouraged me greatly. Yet, when I re-read the story I remembered what fired me about it, and I decided the material was worth another pass. I kept in mind the feedback I had received while I shaved off superfluous text, and worked on the ending. The result was pleasing (to me), so it’s out flouncing its skirts at a new market.

This story and I have a long history together. It was the first one I wrote when I remembered my ambition to write. It has been through many, many drafts. I have learned more from this piece than any other I’ve written, just in terms of development and craft.

Yet, it may never sell, as that is the nature of things. It’s a pity, because of everything I’ve written I want this story in print the most.

Today’s re-writing session allowed me to notice that this story still has potential. I’m particularly happy how I re-shaped the ending. It possesses a symmetry now that I can see was missing. At this point I’ve polished it to its finest. Of course, I thought that in the past… Now, I realise that all the different versions were works in progress. They reflected where I was as a writer at each stage. No story has been with me as long, which is why this one is my lodestone: it points to where I am as a writer, and suggests what I could become.

I’m satisfied my writing has progressed over the past year. I can see it in my work. I have a long way to go yet, but I’m past the plains and at the bottom of the mountain. The hardest effort is yet to come, but it will be the most satisfying (and frustrating, I’m sure).

Maybe this story will travel with me a bit longer, to guide and mark my way.

But, I’d love it to find a home.

It deserves it after all its help.