I’m waiting to hear back on my application for the MA. I thought I’d have heard one way or another by now. The postman has been and gone and all I have is a clutch of bank statements – the politicians have given up leafleting me since the election is today.

Fingers crossed I’ll hear next week. I might even get the results of my Diploma as well. Not that I’m particularly worried about that. I’m sure what I get will be fair.

I’m polishing a story of mine that has seen many incarnations. It’s going out to a market this month; no more fucking around.

I’m finding it frustrating, however. As much as I’ve improved in the past few years, I’m still not where I’d like to be. I can sense this new level of competence like a thundercloud brooding on the horizon. I know I’ll get there, eventually, but perhaps not with this story.

I’m going to set myself a deadline of next week to re-write it, and then I’m posting it. Even if it is rejected, I don’t care. It’s as good as it can be at this point in my development as a writer.

Once that’s done I’m going to re-write another story that’s completed, and send it out. Hopefully, by the end of the month. June is going to be about clearing out the old, so I can start on the new.

I’ve a lot of ideas in my head, and I want to get them down on paper (well, turn them into data on my computer).

But, first I have to nail these stories and send them out. That is important somehow.


  • March

    I may be able to see why it’s important.You want to reach the next level in your writing and so you want to complete the cycle with these stories at the leve you are at now so you can release and move up.It is important to release the energy you currently have in order to make room for the energy you described as that thunderscloud on the horizon.It’s as if you need to leave these stories and travel to that distant storm rather than it coming to you. And where you are to go, those old stories can’t go with you.

    • Maura

      I’ll look into the line breaks problem, it should work fine. I’m assuming you didn’t use a br or a p tag, right?If you look underneath the comment box it lists all the valid tags that will be accepted; obviously I have to protect myself from people trying to implant crap code in this dialogue box.

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